Do you REALLY understand?

What happens when you do not understand something? Besides the confusion there is often times frustration related with the agony of suspense and the thrill of the unknown. What if this thing you do not understand is something that you thought you understood but in a random turn of events you find out that you really had no idea what was really happening? I have recently encountered such an event. I thought I understood everything that there was to understand, and now I have found out how little I really know. It is amazing, as I grow older, I do not seem to learn more, I seem to find out how much more I do not know.
What if that situation that I am referring to is happening to you in relation to your parents? Mine are in the process of a divorce (not new news) and I thought I understood most of what was happening. After talking with my sister (LOL well one of them) I recently discovered that it is nothing like I thought. There is an entirely different side that I have not yet been told or discovered. It is very strange to me because I pride myself on having an objective point of view. That is not possible when you only hear half of the story. My sister and I both had extremely different points of view. And now I am faced with rethinking this entire situation.
Mom is now in Boise, the house is sold in Idaho Falls and she has a bunch of stuff at my house that is being stored.
Dad came up for the weekend. It was SOOO nice to see him. He promised me the money that he owes Becca and me. He was concerned that after the divorce we (his children) would treat him differently. I, for one, would never treat my parents differently but I am not so sure that the other children would behave the same way. I have always been the type that has to see the negative for myself before I believe what someone else says about them. And just because my parents couldn’t live with each other anymore doesn’t mean that either of them are bad people. Treat me the same and, regardless of what I hear, I will treat you the same. Until I see you change I will never treat you differently.
I love both my parents very much and that will never change. I do with that they could have made a life together, but I think they gave it a good shot and I also think that they will be better off as two separate parts. It is like they say the sum of the parts is greater than the whole. It is so wonderful to have parents that love me and a family that would support me no matter what.
That reminds me of another thing, my other parents. I love them too. They came over last night to pick up the pc I was working on. They are the best couple in the whole wide world wide web. They are so supportive and will help me anytime I ask. Who could ask for better friends. Thanks to them I moved back here and have an awesome job. I owe them so much, and I am sure they do not even realize it.
Some other news. We just got a new BBQ grill. The parties shall commence when applicable. And there shall be plenty to go around. Hey… It is Monday, lets have a BBQ!
Becca, I want you to know that I make a concerted effort to listen to you anytime I hear your voice. I love your voice and I do try to listen. I love you like an engine loves antifreeze. Without you I would explode. I need you to know that whatever happens, I love you! Forever. You are the one I am meant to be with and that will never change. We are in this together and I will be by your side whenever you need me.

DON'T FUCKING LECTURE ME!

Before you even get into it take a look at your life and lecture yourself.

All my life I have dedicated a huge effort to doing what I "should" be or "have" to and I'm at a point right now that I'm not doing that any more. Don't tell me what I need to do. Don't tell me what I should be doing. I am well aware what things I have to do and should be doing. Don't even think for one minute that you could tell me to do something that I haven't or don't know I 'should' be doing. You may make a suggestion, but it's just that. Do not push your opinion onto me, I don't want to hear it, unless I ask for it. If I haven't asked don't feel free to share. I don't care what you think. I give advice when I feel it is very important, and even then, it's just that, advice. You don't have to follow it if you don't want to. It's there for you to take and do with what you will. Don't think your advice will be taken any differently.

I know that we all put things out there because we believe in them. Your thoughts are warranted and I want you to know that I heed what I believe is warranted in my given circumstance. If I think your opinion is being pushed on me, I will not listen. I can guarantee you that. Just ask anyone who has tried to get me to quit smoking, they can profess to this.

Forever? I don't think so.

So you say it's been forever since I blogged? WTF? I have a very busy life and it's not one of those things that is a must. American Idol, a must. but anyway. I was trying to think of things to blog about and just came up blank minded... as if that's unusual! LOL I did come up with this tho...

Quadriplegics Unite!

Car and truck manufacturers have been discriminating against you for years and it's time to fight back! How many of your quad friends can drive a car? NONE! That's right. It's a conspiracy to kick you while your down! And I for one, am not willing to sit idly by while this abomination continues! Join with me in TCAATIUAFTUQOA (The Coalition Against all that is Unholy and For The United Quads of America)! Together we can fight this nasty distasteful vengance! They are all jealous because quads don't have fingernails!

Uh... so anyway, Life has been treating me okay, I spose. I had serious problems with my car and mouth and in the midst of all that we ended up in St. Anthony of all places, for her grandmothers funeral. It was a beautiful service and I'm sure she will be remembered for many years. I have to wonder tho if there really is life after this. I believe in God and I trust that He knows what is right for me and my family. Does he always have a plan for us? Is it 'always' in our best interest, I think not. I think that if God really wants to allow us the freedom to be independent, it really isn't his plan. It's more left up to us, and I think that's the way it should be. Sometimes tho, like today when I was standing outside watching the duck eat the popcorn that was put out for him, and he gagged and almost died from a kernal that was stuck in his throat. I have to seriously wonder if God is watching out for ALL of us? This poor duck was hungry, then suddenly and without his permission (I interviewed the duck afterwards) he is gasping for life with every scrawny little muscle in his body! He was later quoted as saying, "Fucking humans and your damn popcorn, NEVER AGAIN!"
He returned later for a second helping, but with less choking this time.
Life seems like that tho, when you FINALLY get what you want, you end up choking on it. Years and years of yearning for something only to have it get caught in your throat while you lay helpless and near death. Was it really worth it? The duck sure seems to think so.
On a deeper note, 14% of wells drilled between 1980 and 1995 have gone dry. Just an interesting stat that I pulled out my ass just now. You like that, don't ya?!
MySpace... btw, really blows donkey ass. I swear that it has to be the MOST unrealiable web site around. It's slower than hell and about that refreshing.
My question to you is this: If a man says something and no woman is around to hear him, is he still wrong?