Mothers Day

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Jenn wrote this... it's very compelling! Read on!

April 21st, my mother was in a major accident. She was traveling home from Ottawa Canada. She was on the highway, going about 90-100 KMH; she can fore see the curve and guard rail quite far ahead, and notices the gravel along the side of the road. The next immediate thing she remembers is waking up, seeing her car moving close to the edge of the cliff fast, she immediately tries to stop, but the car just turns into the cliff, she then stops on the brake, puts the car in park and pulls the emergency brake on. She looks around and in astonishment, notices the car she borrowed to make a trip she has made a thousand times, is totaled. But how? She has no memory. Minutes later as she is sobbing, a fireman that had been working in the area was at her side. He asks her is she is ok and tells her he could feel and hear the impact of the accident 2 miles down the road. She asks what accident and then shortly realizes it must have been her. He informs her that she hit the guard rail and 10 posts lifting them out of the ground that were holding the guard rail. He can't believe she is alive.

My mother was in a major head on collision and was not helped out of the car, was not put in a neck brace, was not put on a flat board, walked into the ambulance, and had her purse recovered with medications in it and never asked, were you drinking, on drugs? Thankfully no one else was on the road and hurt.

The Sunday before this my mother went to church and felt a urge to light a candle (catholic belief), she did feeling a little odd, she has lit a candle, but always at her own will, this time she was pushed. I told my mother and Mat's great Aunt agrees with me; SOMEONE WAS IN THAT CAR WITH HER!!

Now the questions remain; why the urge to light the candle, why the black out? Why did she wake up just in time and know exactly what to do with out feeling sleepy and confused until after the car is at a complete stop? Why is there no bruising? And why the FUCK didn't the ambulance do their job and take her to the freaking hospital?

I began to sob minutes after getting all the details realizing I seriously almost lost my mother, I looked up at my husband in astonishment realizing he had felt this feeling of dread and horror, but for him, he did loose his mother, I asked him, how? How did you deal with that? I can't deal with it now and she is still here? All he said in soft words and sad eyes was "yes, she is still here". I knew then that he is STILL dealing with loosing his mother.

This event has shaken me and my husband, my mom and dad are all we have left. We think our parents are invincible, that they will never die until they get to old, decrepit and annoy you to death. You are not suppose to loose your parents until then. Why does it seem harder to me to loose my mother from a far then when I was sitting beside her in her living room as a young 19 year old? Maturity? Who knows,

Conclusion: Mother's day is coming up; please all that still have mothers or mother in laws, or even mother figures, take them in your arms and realize they are not invincible, they are not immortal, they are precious and few. Tell them how much you truly, need them, love them, appreciate them, and then show them!