Sometimes it's grounding to visit an old friend. Turns out, it almost always has a way of bringing me back to high school. How much different have we become? How much have we really accomplished? Why does it feel so meaningless? I know... so many questions and so few answers, but I really just want to know what the hell happened. My life seems to be fifteen years behind my peers. This is so humiliating. I feel like such a failure. This, on the back of a great interview for better job. I should be anticipating moving up, but I can't seem to get past the nerves and ridiculous expectations.
...
...
i feel...
useless.
meaningless.
heartless.

a lot more less.

sad.
unimportant.
regretful.


alone in a chaotic mess of people. so alone. so ashamed.