Thursday, April 07, 2005

I'm sleepin in my shirt tonight!

LOL, So there is no reason to recap the nights events... if you keep up with the links on my page you will already know what happened. I will say that it was very strange not to have the all too familiar feeling that I must get back to my computer or suffer irreparable damage. Very strange. I will also say that I too enjoyed my quality time with her. It has been many many moons since I last held the hand of a woman. It is one of those very simple pleasures that I had not given thought to until it happened. Just like sitting on the couch with my arm around her, it was all too comfortable. What else I think is strange... She has this way, that is seemingly coy, yet very innocent, that just makes me wanna touch her. ALL THE DAMN TIME! I am about to take handcuffs with me when I go over there so I can restrain myself... uh... on second thought that may be a bad idea, cuz they may end up on the wrong hands! LOL. yeah... No handcuffs.
I now know that she is not perfect, which is a good thing because now I can believe that she is real. I am really not bothered by her 'imperfection' and took the news much better than I would have anticipated. I think there is a mutual trust that has or is developing between us. I trust her and trust that her past will not be repeated. I'm really okay with her. Even thru her mistakes.
I noticed one other thing tonight that never really grabbed my attention. She has hazel eyes. No, really, I noticed that before but what I didn't notice was that when the lights are dim and she has that beautiful smile on her face, her eyes dance. It's magical. There was twice when I'm pretty sure I sounded like a dumbass, because I totally was too busy staring at her that I didn't even hear what she was saying... I'm such a moron sometimes... And I'm sure I said something that was totally fkn retarded and did NOT follow the conversation, but she didn't seem to notice. Or maybe she did and was being very polite. I dunno. But I felt pretty damn dumb.
Can I just also say that her cooking reminds me of mom w's cooking. OH! *slurp* YUMMY! YUM-AY! So, I get home.. hehehe I can't even type this without laughing... so I get home and I just sit in my chair for two hours. hahaha. and I'm just breathing deep and keeping my eyes closed.... hehehe, cuz I totally smell like her. I am such a tard. This aroma will have to wear off before I will shower, I swear it! Oh, and this shirt... yeah, it is SOOO coming to bed with me tonight. OMG! I totally sound like a stalker. OY! So uh yeah... it's 6am, and I must go to bed. by buy bye.

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