Why?

I do not know why. It is a question that will forever be unanswered. I will say this tho, if you are my friend, you are in a very coveted spot. My friends know that I will do anything in my power to assist them whenever they need it and for any reason. As I have said before just let me know if I need to bring a shovel so I can be prepared. I will do anything for my friends or family. There was a time in my life when things were not as important to me as they are and there were many friends that helped me when I was closer to death than I have ever been. I owe a debt that will never be repaid. It is this debt that makes me the stronger, better person that I have become and I will never forget. I owe more to my friends than I would have ever anticipated. If I turn my back on a friend when they need me, I am no better than the serial killers that rot in our prisons. I cannot afford that amount of selfishness or lack of ambition. It would make a part of me die, a part of me that I have been nurturing and allowing to grow for a year now. I think part of what has made me the person I am today is my assistance to others. I feel it makes me stronger and I learn from the experiences. I become a better person for what I assist others to endure. The hardest thing we do in life is suffer thru loneliness and depression. When possible I wish for them to both go away. If I can assist in that process, I am more than willing.
One of the hardest things for me to learn was the separation between people and actions. I love my children even tho I do not always approve of their actions. It was even more difficult because of our society and the way that they judge people based on someone's actions. I do not condone the judgments because they are usually for good cause and I do believe that if someone does something that is illegal, immoral or fattening, they should have to suffer the consequences. I have a tendancy to demand good behavior from a person to love them and I'm getting over that slowly. I have more love for others and myself than I have ever had. I am fortunate to have such loving people in my life. My only hope is that those people I love feel the support and assistance.
I found an awesome quote to end my post with today...
"We are not put on this earth to see through one another, but to see one another through."
Source: Anonymous