commited...

There are many things that get me goin. Few of those really piss me off. This is one of those things.
We both work all week. I know your tired, I am too. I want a weekend to just relax and be lazy, but when the house looks like it was decorated by a grenade something needs to be done. All I want is HELP cleaning it. I am not asking or telling you to do it yourself. I am requesting help. I'm not the only one that lives here and makes the mess, yet it seems that without becoming an asshole nothing gets done unless I do it myself. Am I asking too much of you? I am trying my hardest to provide a clean comfortable atmosphere and I refuse to do it alone. I am getting tired of being an asshole about things. And very soon I will just start letting it go. Ignoring the mess. Allowing the kids to go crazy, and sinking myself into work or the computer. Ignoring the mess will be easy, I may have to use the headphones to ignore the kids tho. I don't mean to be an asshole about things, I try my hardest to be congenial and polite and say please and thank you. When I do, all I get is "in a minute" or "not right now".
I hate it when you tell me "in a minute" but I hate it worse when it's your children that suffer because you are too tired, or don't feel like it. If you don't respond to my requests, that is fine, I can live with it but your kids can't. They don't understand. They still trust you when you say that you will do something and more often than not it seems that you don't get around to it. This is your end of the deal and your letting it fall thru. Your letting your children down. Love your children enough to stop what your doing and take care of what you told them you would do. Keep up your end of the deal, for them.
My thought is that a relationship (especially when there are children involved) needs to be more than 50/50. It takes both of us giving 100% to make this work. I am frustrated and tired. I need you to help me. Help me keep the kids on a schedule that they can rely on. Help me keep our environment clean. Help me be firm with discipline and bottomless with love. Help me.
I know your first response to this will be that you're sorry. Please don't be. It's not sorrow I want. I want a commitment. I want to know that it will not be like this for the rest of our lives. I want to know that your in this as much as I am.