Let Go and Let God

I was standing outside watching the leaves getting blown around and had an apostrophe.
I feel like that some days, getting pushed and pulled in 4 different directions with no real purpose. In a hell of a hurry to get nowhere, but making excellent progress doing so. Problem is, I seem to end up getting where I'm not going and doing what doesn't need to be done. It's funny, life's little twists and turns. I thought I knew where I was going, turns out, I just want to be going. Doesn't really matter where. I'm content in the drive. Not really, I'm a person that needs to get where I'm going NOW. and NOW... NOW... NOW... I don't know why. The drive sucks and it's one I have made several times. Occasionally I find myself on a road I have not traveled. I have to stop and think about where it is I'm trying to get to. It's usually at this point that I pull out the map and go, "Uhh.. WTF? Oh, it's upside down... There, that's better. Now, where the fuck am I?" There's never one of those convenient dots to say YOU ARE HERE! And that kinda sucks. Then again, the road map of life sometimes sucks... Never really points out a destination, just a bunch of roads you could take, or not. Where do you want to go? How fast do you want to get there? In fact... if you FIND a map of Life... GIVE IT TO ME! I seem to have lent mine to the Pope and haven't gotten it back yet.

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Dear Lord,

I put this in your hands as I feel you are the most capable of handling this situation. I know not what to do, or how to do it. I trust your judgment and leadership. Show me the way by sign or heart, I will listen. I put myself into your all-knowing hands for molding of my character. You have never steered my wrong and I know you never will. I trust you, God. I am letting go, and letting you handle it.

Dear Tron,

I full on trust you. You have never given me reason to do otherwise. You know you have my heart and I know that you will care for it properly. I love you more than anything else. I know what is past is past and the future is us and now. We will be together forever, I have no doubts. You have laid your heart on the line, as have I, and together we can make it thru anything. An awesome quote from a dear friend: "You lift me, I'll lift thee and together we shall ascend." That is how I see our lives, we will lift each other. The pedestal I have you on, you deserve. You are loving and faithful. I know this, and for this reason and more, you deserve that pedestal. If I could build you a larger one, taller and wider than any ever created, I would do so. In my mind you are already on it. I love you. You are an awesome mother to our children and an even better wife to me. I wish for nothing more than to give you the entire world and heavens. My love for you knows no bounds.
Here's to our love, life and the pursuit of happiness, together.

Love, Yoshi