There's that feeling

That feeling wells inside me, like someone cutting my ribs.
I wanna yell and scream, and place my own bids.
It's a frightening thing, being all alone.
With no one to lay comfort, to me, I'm on my own.

Attempts to comfort self usually end in vain.
I am my own worst enemy, and now, I don't seem sane.
I now lay down to sleep, and wrap myself in pillows.
But nothing takes away, my pain and all my sorrows.

I try to push it out, but it seems to grip so tight.
I can't get rid of it, No matter how I fight.
My only way of recourse, Is to play the music loud.
But it doesn't stop the voices that turn into a crowd.

The mirror stares back at me, with a glare I know to well.
I want to wipe the slate, and remove myself from hell.
If true love is out there, Please God, let me find it.
I want to know that feeling, and in my heart, bind it.

Let true love reside there, Forever making peace.
So I may carry on, Once again, at ease.
I want to gently feel, the butterfly kiss.
From the one I love, and will always miss.

For when they're absent, my heart is not alone.
I merely miss them and await their coming home.
Loneliness is a vicious thing, it will tear you apart.
True loves are very different, Cuz they keep you in their heart.

I want that special someone, who will keep me all their own.
So I never have to endure, this painful life alone.
They say all good things, come to those who wait.
I am sick and fuckin tired, of waiting for my fate.

I want to push things along; I want my life to move.
I'm sick of being stuck, in the same ol' fuckin grove.
Please God, hear my plea, I'm done with this stupid crap.
It's time for me to move on, and get out of this fuckin trap.

The Jizr 01/2005