Between the Lines

I dream of a place where that didn't happen. It never existed. I used to be able to hear you smile on the phone. Day by day I watched the hatred in you grow. Now you can't control it and it takes over your mind & thoughts, body & actions, heart & feelings. You were happy once, I dream of a place where your happiness is back with you and the anger is no longer. We'll call this place my eyes. In my eyes you are innocent, meek and mild with no reason to be otherwise. Never harmed and never will be. When you need to, you may always retreat here. It can be your safe place. When you need to dance like no one is watching you are welcome here. Please let yourself in and feel at home. You can be alone in my eyes or I can be beside you. Whatever and whenever you need.

Close your eyes and enter my eyes, see yourself resting peacefully as you reread your favorite book or watch your children enjoy Christmas morning, again, as if on tape. Allow yourself to cry when you remember the heartache and helplessness as you watch the video of your infant screaming as he fights sleep, for the third consecutive hour. Bask in the joy of being able to feel. The helplessness doesn't last and you will always fight for control of many things and life will always seem to get worse and better in the same token. Just be happy that you can feel the pain and live in the moments of pleasure and allow yourself to scream in ecstasy when you want.

Life isn't meant to be okay. Life is meant to be trial-some and meant to be as difficult as you can handle. What happens when it becomes too difficult to handle? Many people retreat into depression and fewer resort to suicide. When it's necessary to withdraw, my hope is that you will chose a place more comfortable than heaven and earth. Peace untold by the truths of the human voice await your arrival in my eyes. Allow yourself to be carried when your feet are too tired to walk. Drift slowly on the clouds of inner clearness when your mind becomes too cluttered to breathe. Who can really say how hard it is for you, except yourself? Your views are so limited as you cannot feel what other people feel. We have fairly active imaginations, but it is never exactly the same as the other person is feeling.

The lack of knowledge is astounding when you consider those few things that you know a lot about and then consider that you don't know everything there is to know about it and the millions of other things you really know nothing about. Welcome to a place where you can learn everything there is to know, at the drop of a hat. And in the correct time, place, and mindset, all will be revealed to you, when you are ready. Life is funny that way, you never learn what you want to when you want to. But when you need to learn something, truly need to, it will be taught. Weather or not you chose to absorb the lesson is up to you, but you will have the opportunity to learn it.