Can I Borrow It?

Somewhere there's a stolen halo, I use to watch her wear it well. Everything would shine wherever she would go, but looking at her now you'd never tell... Surround me now, and hold me like holy water. This is a line from a country song by Big & Rich called, Holy Water. I had never really thought about this before but when the song came on they indicated that it was written for Big's sister, who is an icon to the both of them who had her glow stolen from her. It is kinda inspiring. To know that there are still some good people in the world. People that struggle like the rest of us. Who know what it's like to be robbed of something you once knew well. I know that there are, because I see it often. Like I said before, people are inherently good. I still believe that. Even tho I find it hard to do so. There is someone out there who is having this problem and I'm sure there are thousands more who remain nameless and will not admit this feeling of loss, of tragedy, of mourning. At some point we all have our 'halo' stolen from us. In my case it was replaced with the anger and bitterness of divorce. The glow that surrounds us as humans remains until something tragic enough steals that glow from us. Do you have it? Can I borrow it? Please?

Do not ask me about what is to come. I will not answer any questions regarding the following statements... Sometimes when I talk to you I get frustrated, I don't know why. I wanna scream, I love you and I want to be with you, and at the same time, I cannot trust myself around you. I see nothing but the good in you and want to share that forever. I remember telling you once in a conversation that we had several months ago to talk to me while I fell asleep. I was very tired and your voice was relaxing. It had been a long day and it was so nice just to hear your voice and know that you were talking to me. But you declined. I am not bitter about it nor do I have any animosity regarding it. I just thought that you should know, I really wanted you to do that for me. It's okay that you didn't want to. I understand. *smiles* You know who you are and I will not explain any further.