And a Happy New Year

With Christmas come and gone, there is much cleaning and weight losing to do.
I have recently realized what it means to have a "Merry Christmas" This year is the first time in 15+ years that I have even felt like I wanted to have Christmas. I always did the obligatory gifting and made the rounds to say hi, but it has never really been about cheer and greetings. Here's the thing, having someone in my life that means so much to me helps. It helped me see beyond the humdrum day. I didn't think it was possible to create the Christmas feeling. I thought it was something that you either had or didn't have. And I was one of those that didn't have it.
I have also learned that there are times that it pays to bite your tongue and not yell at the children. I have been trying to keep a level head, especially with regards to the boy. Even when I can't see straight and I'm madder than a retard losing at chess, I try to make my statements slow and keep anger out of my voice. It is very difficult for me to pull myself out of the situation and realize that he is only a child and I should be a little more understanding.
So anyway, back to Christmas. I got so many really cool things this year. Tron got me the freakin awesomest thing ever! It's a lightning-electro-lampy type thing that lights up with 'lightning' when it hears noise... Where else to put it but right next to my computer. And occasionally I have to blurt out "AHHH" so it will light up and say Hi to me. I freakin love it! My bro got me Diablo, Diablo II and Diablo II Lord of Destruction. For those of you unfortunate enough to not know what I'm talking about it is only the best game EVER! AND... I got a laser level and shirts and levis and and and... GAWD The list goes on! It was freakin awesome!