Paradise

Well, I think officially, I am calling it quits with this gal, I think she is way to preoccupied. Maybe a friendship is in order. I really don't want it that way. I don't think she is ready for a relationship, that bothers me too. We had lunch today, she was a little distant and not very talkative. She smiled a couple of times and was laughing with me (I love her smile and her laugh is to die for). We talked about networking her computers at home and never really discussed anything of value. It was nice, she would be a much better chat buddy than girlfriend. She would be a great friend and maybe someday it will grow to something larger than that. For now I will pursue other avenues. I crinch at even the thought of it. What am I doing? I am pushing away something I want worse than anything, because she is not ready. Should I wait till maybe she is? I am just a little confused, like a baby in a topless bar. Oh to do, to do....