Well today I went on a lunch date, although I'm debating if you could even call it that. It was just lunch with a cute girl from work. She has a one year old girl that had her birthday yesterday, and got her ears pierced... She is sooo cute! But anyway so I had Jordan and Ethan (my two oldest) with me today and took them to lunch with us. It was a blast watching them play. Then the WORST thing that could have happened, did. My Ex-wife shows up and is "having lunch" at the same place we went... We'll just put that down under emotionally scaring and leave it at that. I must have apologized two or three times, it was SO wrong!!! GOD. Please never let that happen again.
Back to my "date", I love seeing her, she is always equipped with a great attitude and that beautiful smile! DAMN! I have been acquainted with her since before I graduated high school and was dating one of her friends. I always thought that I would never have a chance with her (she is way too pretty for me). BUT DAMN! She actually agreed to go lunch, and at lunch also agreed to a dinner sometime (yet to be announced). I was/am more excited than I have ever been (at least in the last what, 7 years). I have always tried to date within my averageness, careful not to overstep my lot in life and therefore dated very few people, none as beautiful as she. She lights me up, and gives me that validation that I talked about earlier and crave so much. (can I stop thinking about her or talking about her please, I seem to be obsessed). As near to infatuation as one person can get to another without being infatuated, that's me. Sitting here with very little else on my mind. Yup that's me, deprived of sound judgment. Oh how I love the little butterflies and the anticipation of dating. It has been so long for me, I almost forgot what they felt like. Welcome back butterflies (as crazy as that makes you think I am, bring it on.) Hell I don't know what else to write about... All I can think of is her and I don't think she knows or understands what my full thought processes entail. I would love to (within due time of course) marry this woman and be with her for the rest of my life.... We'll see though, cause until I get to know her a little more, she could just be psyco and I'm missing all of the signs, this goes back to the impared judgment as stated previously. As close as I can get to "love" I think this may be it. Course now that I think about it, I sorta felt that way about my ex-wife also but she really is a psyco. DAMN IT, every corner I turn that bitch keeps crawlin up my shit hole and into my brain. Well, enough for now.
Back to my "date", I love seeing her, she is always equipped with a great attitude and that beautiful smile! DAMN! I have been acquainted with her since before I graduated high school and was dating one of her friends. I always thought that I would never have a chance with her (she is way too pretty for me). BUT DAMN! She actually agreed to go lunch, and at lunch also agreed to a dinner sometime (yet to be announced). I was/am more excited than I have ever been (at least in the last what, 7 years). I have always tried to date within my averageness, careful not to overstep my lot in life and therefore dated very few people, none as beautiful as she. She lights me up, and gives me that validation that I talked about earlier and crave so much. (can I stop thinking about her or talking about her please, I seem to be obsessed). As near to infatuation as one person can get to another without being infatuated, that's me. Sitting here with very little else on my mind. Yup that's me, deprived of sound judgment. Oh how I love the little butterflies and the anticipation of dating. It has been so long for me, I almost forgot what they felt like. Welcome back butterflies (as crazy as that makes you think I am, bring it on.) Hell I don't know what else to write about... All I can think of is her and I don't think she knows or understands what my full thought processes entail. I would love to (within due time of course) marry this woman and be with her for the rest of my life.... We'll see though, cause until I get to know her a little more, she could just be psyco and I'm missing all of the signs, this goes back to the impared judgment as stated previously. As close as I can get to "love" I think this may be it. Course now that I think about it, I sorta felt that way about my ex-wife also but she really is a psyco. DAMN IT, every corner I turn that bitch keeps crawlin up my shit hole and into my brain. Well, enough for now.
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