Healed?

So another day down. I have talked before about the monotony of daily life. It seems to hold true for a number of different reasons. Everyday seems to be the same shit over and over again. Then for one reason or another you get exalted to a better realm of existence. A wise man once told me, "If you want to break up the monotony of daily life, all you have to do is start with the things you can change... Put on your socks before your underwear... Put on just your socks and a tshirt and walk around the house. If your wife asks you what your doing, tell her your airing it out." We'll call him Dr. Llama. I damn near died laughing.

Soldier just called me and been tellin me about drama at the homefront. Some shit about a cockroach bill and the landlord is being a jerk and causin drama and they are movin out this weekend. It seems that just when you have a good thing goin, someone has to go and get a stick up they ass and cause more drama. WTF is with that? Things just cannot be left alone, can they? Lives get rearranged, drama ensues, and lovely couples turn into bitter suicidal ex's. All in the same week.

So, I have turmoil, yet again. The decision making of life, love, and the pursuit of good turtle soup have left me with a void. I want to avoid the void, pass the impassable, move the immovable and mention the unmentionable. It is life and constantly changes anyway, even thru the monotony of it. It seems that one day molds into the next / weeks seam with months / months turn into years, and I am left the next year, a little smarter than before, a little more torn, a little weaker, a little more malleable to life, and a little more hardened to the pain and injustice. Will there ever be a point of complete and utter peace in this life? With life becoming more complicated and more dramatic day by day it seems that the answer is 'no'. Yet, at the same token, things will pass, hatred will be softened, the tears mend into scars, and you are left with an old fragile body, covered in scars, emotionally and physically. Can one really heal from the damage that is done? The scar remains. It will always be there. Can you truly heal then? If healing means that you no longer bleed from the wound, then technically you have healed, but to truly recover from said offense I think that it requires more than not bleeding. A full emotional recovery takes a deceptive amount of time. Sometimes it just seems that it is longer than it really is. Time flies, they say, when your having fun. It could be inferred then that healing is not fun, and it's not. It is a long road and full of sharp rocks that will test your durability and strength. Tough it out. Does it get better? It has to. Right? It has to.